Heartbroken… again.

Sometimes I think my pain would never end. Everytime I try something new, the world crashes down on me again. The only thing keeping me balanced is that now I know I can talk to someone about it and sometimes the pain does go away with reassuring words, smiles or maybe just the fact that someone’s there to listen.

I’ve always thought of them as monkeys.. maybe I still do with all the immature ideas, and wild, I might add, that just pops out of their brains… and I feel guilty for taking part in these crazed “activities” most of the time. But, now it seemed that we’ve all grown up and now they are a bit, okay, okay, a lot more mature.

Being heartbroken… my new, but not so new predicament… now I’m not heartbroken with death of a loved one… or heartbroken over a life filled with lies… but more of heartbroken over a girl…

Darn… I need to talk to someone about this new predicament.

Flipping through the address book, I randomly picked a number and dialed away.

“Hi. Kirisawa residence, Fuuko speaking.”

“Fuu. I need to talk to you, I’m kinda caught up in a bit of a jam here, need help, pronto.”

“Sure, Mi-chan, just hold one for a sec.”

<BEEP>

“Anyway, I’m back…”

“Who was that?”

“Oh I was talking to Ryu-chan a while ago. I just hung up on him and told him this was important. So, what’s up, buddy?”

“okay, I talk, for now, and you listen first, K?”

“No problemo!”

I took a deep breath and began to tell my story of… woe? “About 3 or 4 moths ago, I met this woman. Like every guy who saw her, I thought she was beautiful. Hearing this from me, Fuu, you can probably tell she was something.”
“Yeh… you don’t go on calling women pretty… OH! You’re in love with—“
“Fuu” I cut her off there as I placed the phone on the other ear. “Me first.”
“Oh. Gomen. Go on Mi-chan.”
“It’s alright. Anyway, for me she was perfect. Her dark hair was long and wavy. Her brown eyes just twinkles… everything about her just makes me fall more.
“I didn’t know what to do, and I asked a few friends here for advice and they encouraged me to go for it and ask her out.” I paused, checking if she’s still awake.
“Uh huh, go on.”
“So I did and well, we started going out. She was very gentle and caring.. as time went by, I came to the point where all that matters was that girl. I became very possesive.
“Day in, day out, we spent our time together… we were so in love but I never got the courage to tell her I love her so. She was my first girlfriend—ever. To think how you and the others always say that I can practically get any girl I want… I never had a girlfriend, she was the very first and I wanted her to feel… special, which she already was.
“Maybe it was something I did, maybe not… but 3 days ago, I thought everything’s going to be fine, then my world went down again. She broke up with me… she broke up with me just after I told her I love her.
FLASHBACK
 I looked deep into her eyes and mustered all the courage that I’ve gathered through all those times, mustered up the courage just to say those 3 small words that I thought were once lost to me, “Yuki-chan, I love you.” And my heart raced as I waited for her response.
 I saw her shake her head and tears streamed down her cheeks.”NO!”
 “Huh?” I raised my eyebrows, confused. I tilted her head so I can see through her eyes for the answer.
 “Tokiya-chan, I didn’t come here to tell you that… I love you, too, but, instead I came here to say,” she wiped her tears and stared me in the eye, “I’m sorry, but, it’s-it’s over.”
 I saw her look down then turned and ran away, leaving me with all the misery, paind and confusion.
END FLASHBACK

I relayed my whole story to Fuuko.
“Wow, Mi-chan. I don’t know what to say. You really love her, huh?”
“Yeah. I’m not done yet though, this morning, I was jogging round the track field and I saw her up in the bleachers with this guy, making out as if they are the only people in the world. Just when I thought that’s all the pain I guy could ever get for being heart-broken, They give me more as if I was asking for the whole thing.”

“SHE WHAT!!!?”

“Chill Fuu… I just feel so betrayed. Maybe I should have told her I loved her earlier.. I don’t like this feeling, make it go away, Fuuko.”

“Mi-chan, as much as I want to take all your pain away so you don’t have to suffer, I can’t. Right all I can do is to be that someone who you can talk to.”

“I know.”

“Being heartbroken over soemthing or someone.. is a good thing, in a way, if you look at the bright side. Because of this experience, your heart and soul would embark on a healing process that will strengthen you. Let this process happen, Mi-chan and you will find that you are stronger and better. I’m sorry.”

"Thanks, Fuu. There’s nothing better than talking to your best friend about this."

"You’re welcome! What are best friends for?"

"Yeah. By the way, how are you and your boyfriend?"

"Me and Ryu-chan are diong pretty good. We’re on our 11th month 9 days from now, Mi-chan!!! Can you believe, the longest time I’ve been in an actual relationship."

"That’s great! I told you Ryu was the one for you…"

It’s times like these that makes me happy I have friends like the Hokage. They may not be all brains, but with them, I’m assured that there are people who still cares and loves me for me. Not that ice-cold, arrogant, smart-ass of a jerk everyone knows… wait a minute, that is me. Oh well, after all my trials, they still stick by my side. Maybe that’s the reason why I stick by them and love them as much, too.

"Oh yeah, Michan, Reunion of Hokage 2 weeks from now… didja get the invitation?"

"Yeah, I’ll be there."

"Glad to hear that…"

I know I can neer find any other friends like them. I guess the saying is true, riends are like treasures, they are very hard to find.. that works for me, considering how I met them. My friends are the only family I have now. They’d be my diamonds and gold treasures where the X marked the spot.
 

Author’s Notes: If you are wondering why Tokiya is a bit out of character, well, let’s just say, he’s moved on. Tokiya is 20 years old and Fuuko is 19. The best friend thing, let’s just say that he has learned how to accept the Hokage for who they are and he let them in. Any comments, suggestions? Review it or email me at: px3destiny@hotmail.com . Want to visit my site? Check it out: http://www.geocities.com/moonstar_freak . Still under major renovation, but viewable… hehehe. Thanks for reading the story, and buh-bye.

DISCLAIMERS: I do not own Flame of Recca… So I don’t own Tokiya or Fuuko… just Fuuko’s boyfriend: Ryu and Tokiya’ ex-girlfriend: Yuki. They are mine.