LONELY LOVE
chapter 7
By Chi-chan
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                    Raiha… You were my savior when I went to France.

                    I was lost and all alone…

                    But there…

                    I found you…

                    You were sweet, kind, and everything I needed…

                    You filled that lonely space within my broken heart.

                    You made me forget…

                    But I can never forget…

                    For some reason my heart would not let me.

                    And now, I feel so out of place.

                    I love you but still…

                    My heart still aches at the smallest fact that can be so heart shattering –

                    You're. Not. Toki-chan…

 

 

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                    He smiled cheerily as he drove to work on the sunny morning. Everything seemed so perfect.

                    The sun was shining.

                    The birds were singing.

                    He was singing - ^^

                    The sky was clear.

                    Children walked hand in hand with their parents.

                    Friends talking as they take a soft stroll.

                    And lovers were walking together on the road…

                    And that brought a frown to mar his smile.

                    'Lovers…'

                    He wondered if Fuuko had gone so far with Raiha as to…to…

                    He couldn't finish the thought.

                    Actually, he could. But he didn't want to. The thought of his Fuu-chan becoming that intiment with a guy would drive him crazy… or at least more so that he was but now.

                    Fuu-chan was his, and even if she had…

                    It didn't matter… it would not matter… he would still love her, no matter what.  He had waited so long for her…he had never felt the want for someone as he did to her.

                    He sighed, as he looked up upon the building that was his life the past years when Fuuko had left him.  There was but a meeting today, and Raiha would be presented there also.

                    What would they do when they saw each other? Act amiable? It would be nice little charade…but sooner or later, Tokiya would begin to question him. And then, when he found out how close he and Fuuko were…

                    Raiha would probably force him to stay away from her…

                    'Away from Fuu-chan?'

                    The realization hit him. Hard. It would be impossible to live with out her. It was like taking

away air from a man.

                    Impossible.

                    It would be like a death stroke.

                    He needed her.

                    He couldn't function without her, weather or not she knew it. They had been together for nearly 14 years now…more than half their lives. He knew that…

                    That what?

                    Fuuko had already moved on. She had found a new partner.

                    A dark thundercloud could practically be seen as Tokiya rode the elevator to the top. And when the doors opened…

                    Shoulder-length fade blue hair.

                    Piercing light blue eyes…

                    It was Raiha. The President of their company. And so while everyone else on the elevator scurried to get away, Tokiya stood there calmly, un-knowingly eyeing his 'competition.'

                    "Hello."

                    The first word had been spoken by Raiha.

                    "Hello, Raiha."

                    Cold, formal words…For the man that had stolen Fuu-chan's heart. He stepped out of the

elevator. They were nearly the same height, but Tokiya had an inch on him.

                    "How are you?"

                    "I'm fine…and you?"

                    Oh, so they were going for polite? Tokiya knew that Raiha was sizing him up, too. It wasn't hard to miss, the blue eyes narrowed, and scanning him, up and down.

                    He could only imagine what Raiha was thinking.

                    "I'm fine, Tokiya."

                    And then, the conversation was off, and they had decided to talk about the designs of the new buildings that were being put up.

                    'So,' Tokiya thought, 'I guess that this is how it will always be…Completely talking about work, and never about the woman that means the most to us both…Fuu-chan…'

                    And so they left to walk to the conference rooms, exchanging ideas and prices, ignoring the fact that both men, although Raiha did not know it, were in love with the same woman.

                    Fuuko…

 

 

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                    Fuuko walked into the building—the building she leased with Kagero—and climbed up 3 flights of stairs. It was quite odd, really. She should have been tired. After all, she had been up until 5AM talking to Tokiya on the phone…

                    But she wasn't.

                    Surprisingly, she was awake. Very awake. She felt…rejuvenated. Like she hadn't felt since…

                    She blinked, and stopped, her leg in mid-step.

                    Like she hadn't felt since…she had lived with Tokiya, 2 years ago…

                    She hadn't felt so happy since she was…

                    In love…With…*Him*…

                    'Oh no…Oh no, oh no, oh no.'

                    It couldn't be…

                    She couldn't be…

                    She shook her head furiously.

                    'Oh god…no…it's not true…'

                    It wasn't possible.

                    It just can’t be!

                    This can’t be happening.

                    She had Raiha…and he was everything to her.

                    *Everything*

                    Her brain fought an argument with her heart, as she continued to trudge up the steps.

                    'You're over him. You've been over him since you walked away 2 years ago…'

                    'Raiha is an excuse. You know that you will never love Raiha as much as you loved Tokiya.'

                    'Raiha will always be there. There is no doubt where his heart lies. Tokiya, on the other hand…you can never tell.'

                    'But wouldn't you be willing to take the risk? The risk of being…the happiest woman in the world?'

 

 

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                    She shook her head, clearing all her thoughts. She was determine to focus and business today—not her love life.

                    Finally reaching the top of the steps, she pushed open the door and walked briskly, past her secretary and into her office.

                    Kagero was there, waiting for her.

                    "Fuuko-chan, a friend of yours called today." She raised a suggestive eyebrow.

                    Fuuko grinned and thought, 'You see? Raiha does care! He probably called to say that he loves me. He always did that in France.'

                    Setting her briefcase down, she said to Kagero, "Really? What time did Raiha call? Was it very impor“

 

                    Those beedy little black almond shpaed eyes showed amusement as she interrupted Fuuko’s sentence.

                    "It *wasn't* Raiha. It was another man…let’s see... does a Tokiya…sound very familiar to you? Mikagami Tokiya?"

                    Fuuko's eyes grew large, and she whispered, "Toki-chan?"

                    A rich laugh cam from the woman.

                    "'Toki-chan'? Why, Fuuko-chan, getting pretty friendly with they guys around here?"

                    "Of course not!" Fuuko snapped. "How dare you even say so! You know I love Raiha."

                    The last part she whispered, to basically console her beating heart.

                    "Sorry, Fuuko-chan! You knew that I was just kidding! And besides, I know about you and Raiha. He is practically devoted to you! Geez…All I want to know is who this 'Toki-chan' is! And why he has such a personal nickname!"

                    Fuuko had never told kagero about Tokiya when they had met each other in France…

                    "And if he's cute or not!"

                    She thought that it would be best for some secrets to stay secrets.

                    "Is he single? God knows that I need a man in my life!"

                    She didn't want Kagero to know Tokiya.

                    Kagero was a woman of the world, and she could conquer any man.

                    All male population would kiss the ground she would walk in just to be qualified to bask her presence.

                    What more would Tokiya be?

                    He has seen Kagero, hasn’t he?

                    "Hey, Fuuko? Hello! Mayday! Mayday! Earth to Kirisawa Fuuko! Fuuko-chan, are you listening to me?"

                    Black eyes peered unthinkingly at purple.

                    ‘Her mind is wandering agaim’ thought Kagero

                    "Hai…"  She said softly, as she spoke up, "It's just…"

                    Fuuko looked away.

                    "Toki-chan… he isn't the man for you…" she said quickly, as Kagero stared at her in surprise.

                    "And why is that?"

                    "Because… I…"

                    Her voice broke, as she took a deep breath.

                    "I use to be in love with him…"

                    Kagero stared at her.

                    "And I still might be…"

                    She began to retell the story of years ago and what had drawn her away from her home.

 
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Author’s notes:

Hi! Chapter 7 at last! Anyway, what your thinking right now, tell me! E-mail me at chi-chan1012@hushmail.com and chi_chan1012@edsamail.com.ph

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